Thursday, December 3, 2015

A few words from a mostly sane person



                I have a disease. I am tired.

             I suffer from severe Internet exhaustion. I don’t mean to sound like an old fogey, I don’t mean to be anti-progressive and I realize I’m part of the generation that expanded the internet into the Leviathan it has become. But the Internet is no longer a place for cute cat videos, sharing pictures with your grandma or questionable and regrettable pornography surfing. The internet is a battle ground, and every single one of us is on the frontlines. In fact, unlike any other battlefront in history, there are ONLY frontlines. Allow me to explain.

                Recently, I made the mistake of downloading the Click2Houston, FoxNews, and CNN apps on my phone. Now every time I look at the screen for a new notification, instead of a funny comment or FB message, I receive news which reads a little like this:

“Click2Houston: Woman shot in southwest Houston, killer still at large. Is he coming straight for you?”

“CNN: England, Russia, France and USA join in coalition to bomb the bejeesus out of (insert middle eastern country name here).”

“FoxNews: Baby murdered in your back yard and left there. Police wonder: did you do it?”

                I understand these may seem ridiculous and exaggerated, but they are only slightly. All day, every day I am bombarded with this type of news, and it gives me the suffocating feeling that this world is closing in around my throat. So, I try to go to Facebook to get away from the horror in the news, only to come across something even more vile: The Never-ending Dodgeball Game of Political Polarization. I don’t even see a feed anymore, all I see is a distinct and worn field, with progressives lined up on one side and conservatives on the other, each hurling muddy balls as hard as they can from either end of the field. No one is talking, there is no meeting in the middle to discuss a cessation of fire. There is only the hurling and the snarling. Generally these two aggressive teams are arguing whatever I just received a notification about. Even though the news clearly only came through for the first time two minutes ago, people already have an opinion. This seems strange to me, and frankly makes me feel a little slow, which I am not used to.

                How could they have already formed an opinion? Do I have the wrong information? I haven’t even been able to finish reading the article fully or researching other news agencies and finding the most unbiased account of what really happened. How can I have an opinion based on so little untrustworthy information?

                It’s simple. Those people are lined up on their side of the field and they look to their “team” for what they should feel. Instead of looking inside, weighing their own compassion, their personal experiences, their love for other humans and their own countrymen, the desire to make America and the world better, the consequences of their choices, and especially the validity of the information, they choose whatever their side believes and go to the mattresses. Simply because they have agreed with it in the past, they must agree with it now or look like a fraud.

               Imagine that information is a spring. The source of the spring is crystal clear and fresh, the information of those at ground zero. If we are to use the Paris attacks as an example, the source is the mouths of the people at Bataclan, those who stared down the barrel of the gun. They are the only ones who TRULY know what happened in that room, no matter how many debriefings and TV interviews they do. As you follow the stream, it first passes through the rushing, frothing, rocky rapids of the first responders, police, medical personnel, authorities on the ground, who are less concerned with the details of information and their political implications, and more about saving lives. As they should be. Then we pass through the sloshy bogs of media vultures, swarming down on the scene like hungry, blind parasites, clutching to every bit of gossip they can grasp in their groping hands and using it as a supposition. The water grows murkier, yet the spring still carves its way forward, until it hits the concrete dam of politicians. They filter and compress and bend the stream to suit their needs and release it on the other side at 30% volume.  So at this point we have probably 25% of the original spring and the rest is murky, dirty, over processed information, which then flows directly to a stagnant, putrid, mosquito infested retention pond, called the internet from which we pick up the glass and drink freely.

                It’s from this diseased water that we form our opinions and tout them as fact backed up by information that is a lot closer to fiction than to the original story.

                Great thinkers from the past would be very disappointed in us. We take fragments of truth and make our proverbial mountains out of them. And what kills me is our certainty. We are firm in our belief that whatever we’re saying is right, and anyone who is against us will be defeated by the flood of internet articles we can find that support our opinion. The truth is we’re just throwing dirty water on each other and saying we’re clean. There are people who spend their entire lives studying something and never know the full extent of the thing. People like DaVinci, Einstein, Plato and Descartes will tell you that the more you learn about anything, the more you realize you know so very little. In our lifetime we can maybe become experts in one, if you’re lucky two areas. I could study literature for the rest of my life, read a book every second I’m alive and still not know the cannon. An astronomer could spend every second of their life staring through a lens and making calculations and they will still only know a minuscule fraction of the universe. But after reading the headlines and a four paragraph article on the page of our news agency of choice, we are unequivocal experts on that current event and nothing can dissuade us.

                I firmly believe the internet is making us stupid because it is taking away our ability to discern truth from lie and fact from fiction. A perfect example of this can be found in the most recent episode of South Park (who I follow like a blind dog as my political compass) entitled “Sponsored Content.” They state that people have lost the ability to tell the difference between news and ads. I have to agree. Those who follow CNN, Fox, etc. do you know what part of the news is being sponsored by what company? Do you know who is paying for the spin on the information you are using as irrefutable fact? Because I don’t.

               Now that my feet are hurting up on this soap box, I will end with this. I am tired of being placed in a category, of following the dirty stream of sludge thinking I’m at Sandals on the lazy river. I’m cleaning my hands, I am getting informed, and I am finding the truth from now on, no matter how hard it is to discover. I don’t want to grandstand anymore for things other people believe in, I don’t want to put others down for what they believe, and I don’t want to stand on a crumbling foundation anymore trying to find my balance.

                In closing, fuck you Internet.

                Fuck you.

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